Spring Fever is setting in

It's that time of year again where I don't really care that much anymore. I do care about getting all A's but I can't focus on studying. I feel like I've got the material pretty well covered for my exam tomorrow even though I haven't done much studying. I don't think there is going to be much on the test and what is on it is mostly common sense stuff. I have an exam Monday night that will be harder, but still not bad. I have to give a presentation Monday, which I have to finish tonight since I'm going out of town. I need come up with some creative way to present it because the presentations are being graded competitively. Hopefully I can come up with something. My exam next Thursday will be the hardest. I have plenty of time to study for it though. My dad is coming tomorrow morning to move my stuff out. After he leaves I'm headed to Beaver for the weekend. I must be crazy for going up there the weekend before finals, but as I have just mentioned, I have it all under control. There is only one problem....I can't focus! I think it must be my office setting. I studied ok in my room earlier today so maybe that will work tonight. Later tonight I'm going out with some of the coolest people on campus to the lamest bar in Berea. It will be ok though because this will probably be the last chance I get to hang out with a good friend. It's so sad that she will be leaving, but I'm happy that she has the opportunity. I didn't experience much of this sadness with the seniors who graduated last year because I didn't know any of them very well. I have had two years to get to know this batch of seniors and I love some of them. I'm also going to get the chance to see another good friend who I probably won't see until next semester. I love her and we haven't hung out in a while so tonight should be fun. J was supposed to visit, but his car isn't working so he can't get here. It's ok though because I feel like I should spend time with my friends since I won't be here for the last weekend at school. I want to hang out with them. I'll see J tomorrow. He is really bummed that he couldn't come, but I tried to help him look at the bright side of the situation. I am bummed too, but I'm glad that I still have something to do. It will also give me chance to pack a little before my dad comes tomorrow, making the loading go faster. Another good thing about him not coming tonight is that I'll be able to get more school work done so I will have less to do when I'm visiting this weekend. Last night I imitated a squirrel and it was good.

Shark

Yesterday I officially jumped the shark, then showered with it. In the afternoon the roommate and I had a little bondage time on the futon over VH1 classic. Some creepy music video came on so we turned the channel to MTV2. That station was showing a music video for some emo band. We were wondering who it was. This little blurb reading "Do you want to see more Elite 8?" kept popping up so we figured oh this must be the Elite 8. Silently, we both wondered why there weren't 8 of them. When the video ended the little credit thing in the corner showed up and we were informed that the band we had been viewing was Taking Back Sunday and the show that it was on was called Elite 8. At that moment we knew that we had outgrown MTV and were no longer hip. We decided that we are now allowed to have children who will scream at us, "You just don't get it, Mom, you're not cool." Upon this revelation we decided to exchange a high 5...and missed. It just added to the moment of our unhipness. Later in the evening I went to take a shower and found a blown up shark toy in the shower. Being unhip as I am, I said, "What's this whale thing?" Then I realized that it was a shark. I threw it out of the bathroom, and then realized how fun it would be to shower with it. I asked the roommate if she would allow me to shower with her toy shark, and she agreed, laughing the entire time. It was very exciting to have a toy in the shower. I had to be careful of his fins when I bent over. I didn't want him to violate me. After I got out of the shower, the roommate told me that she could hear me bumping up against him and thought it was quite humorous. I had been having a frustrating night before that so I was glad to have the shark to lighten up my night. This is why my roommate and I need to live together. We are so in love.

I like running around in my underwear

My little was listening on the phone conversation I had with J tonight and she picked out this quote as the most important of my life:

"When I was little I used to lift my skirt up over my head....and I haven't grown out of it."

That pretty much describes my weekend. I never wear skirts, but Saturday night I went out with a bunch of girls. Since I never go out, I decided that I should wear a skirt because that can be cute. When I was walking across campus to the bar I felt the urge to lift my skirt over my head just like when I was a little girl. I don't know why. I like running around in my underwear. I always have. We didn't have air conditioning in my house when I was a little girl so I used to wear my underwear as my pj's and before bed I would run around the house in them because it was so hot. I resisted the urge to lift the skirt all the way over my head. I hugged a tree because it was Earth Day. I wore sunglasses as night because I'm VIP, bitches! I was so obnoxious. I flashed the shocker in every picture that I could. There are some fun pictures of that night. I am waiting for my friend to upload them onto the internet so I can steal them. April Reign was so much fun. I loved sitting there with all my sisters cheering the competitors on. I took tons of pictures. It was a beautiful day and I was thankful that I got to be out enjoying it for such a long time. I wasn't sick anymore because it rained the day before. That confirms that what I had was allergies because the rain dampened the pollen so it wouldn't bother me so much. I'm glad I didn't have a cold. My tummy problems also went away Saturday, thankfully. I got sunburned in my part because I wore my hair in braided pigtails. It is painful to brush. It doesn't really matter that it will turn into tan, because no one cares if your scalp is tan. More than likely it will start pealing and then it will look like I have a dandruff problem. My arms got slightly sunburned, but like my mom said, a little sun is good for you so you get Vitamin D. When I go out to the beach in May I will be wearing sunscreen everyday. The only problem will be that I will have no one to put it on my back. The baby is too young. I'll figure something out. I can't wait!

Crazy week is almost over

I have had a nutzo-busy week this week. Luckily, the stuff that kept me busy was, for the most part, fun Phi Mu events. I had my Gamma Chi interview Wednesday night. I thought it went well, but I'm really nervous about whether or not I will get it. I thought that I answered the questions insightfully and to the best of my ability. We will probably find out on Monday night. I dreamt last night that I got a spot as an alternate and I was highly disappointed. I'm glad that dream wasn't real and I hope it does not come true on Monday. Tonight is the chariot race. I just have to steer so it's not too demanding for me. I'm really tired and I think I'm sick. I have cold-like symptoms that could be allergies and I've been having digestive problems. I really just want to take a nap. I may do that after chariot instead of watching the relay's. I'm not sure, we'll see how I feel. I don't want my little to be really bored tonight when she stays in my room because I'll probably be so tired that I'll want to go to bed early. Tomorrow is going to be a really big day so I need to have plenty of sleep before it begins, especially since I may be sick. The April Reign events should be fun to watch because I've never seen them before since it was rained out last year. Pass downs will be a good time because I like getting stuff, even if most of it is junk. Hopefully my evening after pass-downs will be eventful, as long as I'm feeling better. I think it should be a really fun weekend. I need to get homework done now, before it starts so I don't have a bunch to do on Sunday before initiation when I'll want to relax. I talked to my cousin's wife in SC yesterday. She informed me that I will be the little one's primary babysitter for the month. That made me happy because that means more money! She asked what I make at my regular babysitting job and she told me she would at least match that. I think prices of things are more inflated down there so I may get more, which would be really nice. She told me that there is a beach inside of their gated community and a pool at my aunt and uncle's condo. They have a bike that I can use to pull the little one around in instead of having to drive to the beach. I'm excited about all the time I'll get to spend outside on the beach! I'll need to get a library card there so I have plenty to read. I'm just sorry that I can't stay longer. She said that the month of May has perfect beach weather because it's not so terribly hot out as it gets in July. I cannot wait to get down there!

I'm famous in the office

Last Thursday I was asked by a representative from the Exponent, "What tattoo have you always wanted?" I answered "Anna Nicole Smith, on my back." It was all in good fun. My reasoning behind the tattoo is that her entire family has her likeness tattooed on their backs and I thought it was outrageous. I caught part of a show about her once where they interviewed her family. I think one of her former lesbian lovers has one too. In the office everyone from the Math Department Chair to the girl I take over for at 3 has said something about it. This is the big issue of the Exponent because it features a lot about our retiring college president. I'm so glad that I could be a part of this special issue in this very special way. I hope no one thinks I'm serious because that would be sad. So this morning I got up early and got all dolled up for my Gamma Chi interview only to get there and find out that it is at 9:35 PM rather than AM. I was just assuming normal business hours when I signed up. Luckily, I am free at that time tonight also. I'm really excited because I get to eat at Antonio's tonight. That means a yummy pizza for dinner and great company to share it with! I got my Soc test back today and I got over 100 on it so I should be in good shape for my final grade. It's looking like I won't get an A- in a 100 level class after all. Thank goodness. The prof also offered us the option to take the final the Friday before finals week. I decided to take that option because I have three finals on Monday and Soc was one of them. Now, I will only have two finals Monday and one is a presentation that I have already finished the research for. It will be even harder to resist going to Beaver that weekend since I have absolutely nothing else going on aside from studying for my tests for the first time in a while. I'll probably end up going because I have no will-power. The last time I went I had a big test on Monday night which was the same as the final for that class will be, and I did fine. I got a higher grade than I had on the test before that. I just have to start preparing for the test days in advance because I know that I won't get to do hardcore studying in the days before. The test is at night so I can spend all of Monday doing some hardcore studying. The only thing I'll need to be around for that weekend is to move all of my stuff out. My dad is coming either Friday or Sunday to do that. We'll see what happens next week. I may not get to see him next week, which makes going there even harder to resist. I'll figure it out when I get there, I guess.

A weekend outdoors

I got to spend so much time outside over the long weekend. I loved it! Friday, I took the boys out to the park after lunch. I chased them and the little friends they made around the playground playing the "brain-sucker" game. If I catch them I get to suck their brains out. After playing at the park we went back to their house and got their bikes and the dog to take a walk at Speigel Grove. The dog was pulling me along the entire way--she doesn't get out much. We spend about an hour walking around. The trip was tiring because they walked their bikes down a big hill and then had to walk them back up. I couldn't help them because I had to keep a hold on the dog. We went back to their house and I put in Star Wars Episode III for them so that they could relax after our busy afternoon and so the time would pass quicker. I spend the entire evening at home cleaning in preparation for my special guest. Saturday J got to my house around 2:15 or so. He brought flowers for both me and my mother. She was impressed by the gesture. I let them talk for a little bit before J and I went on a little walking tour of Fremont. I was so excited to show him where I grew up. I showed him the downtown area. We walked up some streets with really pretty houses. We also took a walk through the Grove and went into the Hayes Museum. He actually was interested at looking around the museum so we did that for a little bit. I got to show him the doll house that I used to fantacize about playing with as child (sometimes I still do). It belonged to president Hayes's daughter. It is large and very intricate. After that we went back to my house where he got to chat with my mother a little more. Then we decided to go play putt-putt so we walked down to the place only to discover it was closed. By that time, it was near the supper hour so we walked back up to my house and got in the car to head to Woody's Drive-In Resaurant. The food there was excellent as always. J really liked the food and the root beer (we brew it ourselves). I went and talked to my boss (I worked at this place for four years. I have taken two summers off to watch the boys) and I asked her if she would want my help this summer and she garunteed me a job. She asked me what I wanted to do and I said "run end" (which is cook) because I knew that that is the job I'm best at and she usually needs people there, but she said "how about car hop" which is what I really wanted. That was pretty awesome. So, this summer I will be babysitting the boys and car hopping at Woody's. After dinner we went to the local movie theatre and watched a crappy movie. Then we went and got ice cream. After ice cream, we colored Easter eggs in my kitchen. I got this weird kind of dye because it was sparkly and he loves sparkly things. It was interesting to work with. We watched the movie American Splendor. The movie was and enjoyable way to end the day. Saturday was such a great day because I got to show J where I come from.

Potato chips and peanut butter

I highly enjoy the combination of potato chips and peanut butter. My favorite potato chips are manufactured in Tiffin, OH and are only sold in North West OH. I told J about this a long time ago. Yesterday, he shows up at my dorm with a box full of bags of these potato chips. I was speechless. I asked him where he got them and he told me that he called the company and ordered them. I could not believe it. I hate making phone calls so that would have kept me from doing such a thing. This was very far above and beyond. He is incredible. I am starting to wonder if this is really happening. Whenever I look at him I cannot stop myself from smiling because he is such an amazing person. Over the weekend he played and sang First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes. The words describe our relationship perfectly.

This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach

Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am
I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go

And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you had just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”

So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery
Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me

My Easter break has begun

Today, at 12:20, my Easter break began. My history professor cancelled class tomorrow because he is going to Mexico. The reason I am at school is work. I have to work tomorrow from 12-2 and then again from 5-7. I could easily ask for the day off, but I do not want to give up those wages. I wouldn't do much at home aside from procrastinate my homework. I get more done when I am at school, especially at work. I will get my Advocacy Project done tomorrow. I also plan to watch a meeting during my three hour break in the afternoon. After I get that project done tomorrow I will have some reading to do, which is the remainder of my homework for the weekend. I just have to do a little bit each day. There is a poetry slam tomorrow night that my roommate is participating in. She asked if I wanted to go with her. It's at 7:30. I was planning to drive home at 7 when I got off of work, but now I'm thinking I might stay and go with her. I like to support her and I want to see what this business is all about. I wouldn't do much once I got home at 9. I just want to be back before midnight because I have to be up around 7:45 the next morning to watch the boys. The more I think about it, the more I like the idea of sticking around so I think I will. I'm excited to see the boys. I need to come up with something fun to do with them. Hopefully it will be nice out so we can go to the park or take the dog out for a walk. They like when I chase them, so I may wear "play clothes" and take them out to the park to run around. Maybe I'll take my baseball glove too and we can play some catch. I want them to remember why they like me so that they are excited about the summer. I think we will be spending a lot more time outside this summer. I am planning to get myself a summer pass for swimming at the Bettsville Quarry so we can go there a lot. They love playing in the sand there. I also want to spend more time practicing sports with them. Last summer, we headed down to my cousin's house, which is down the street from the park, to see if he had any tennis balls and he ended up coming out and playing baseball with us. It was a lot of fun for them because they got to play with an older boy. They always have me around, but I'm a girl so I have cooties. Unfortunately, my cousin moved to Columbus so we won't get to play at the park with him again this summer. I have to get some reading done now.

Up early for no reason

Today I was supposed to have an appointment at 10AM, so I got up at 9. I got a call around 9:15 saying the lady needed to reschedule. I was already too awake to go back to bed and I knew that my roommate being up wouldn't help me get back to sleep. I went to bed at 1 last night and so getting up at 9 was 8 hours of sleep. That is plenty of sleep. I get so excited when I get that much sleep. I went to the Beave for the last time until after finals over the weekend. It was a lovely trip. We went to the grocery store to get fixin's for dinner. I enjoyed the shopping trip...I was the taskmaster while J was distracted by shiny things. We cooked up some BBQ chicken, rice, green beans, and home made french fries. It was an excellent meal. I was so satisfied that I didn't need to have a snack later. If I have fulfilling meals then I don't snack. I think that is my problem here at school...my meals are just not fulfilling enough. My mom's birthday was nice. We had turkey, mashed potatoes and corn for dinner. It was so good! Two great meals in a row! Well actually three because J made me pancakes and sausage for breakfast. The pancakes were from scratch. My mom liked the bag I got her. My dad got her a CD. It is getting hard to buy for my parents. I can't just draw them a picture or make one of those little chore coupon books any more. I actually have to spend money on a well thought out gift. We didn't have a cake. I guess it's because there are only three of us and they are the only ones who eat cake. They probably didn't want to be stuck eating an entire cake. I'm glad I get to go home again this Thursday because I kind of miss it. J is coming on Saturday to meet my mom and spend Easter with us. We don't do anything big for Easter. We just go to church and then out to lunch with my parents' best friends. It's a pretty low-key day. I'm usually terribly bored so it will be nice to have company. If it's nice out, we can go for a walk around Fremont because there are some pretty parts of town. I'm pretty excited to show him where I live! Yesterday I realized how hardcore I have been ignoring my friends. I am slowly working to correct the situation. It will be easier after Easter because I won't be able to leave school. I also do not have a lot of work going on in the next few weeks so I'll be able to spend time with people before we leave for summer...as long as they aren't too busy. I talked to one of my friends from Fremont last night. I'm glad that we'll be in close proximity again so we can hang out. She really needs a girl friend to talk to. I know how important girlfriends are to a relationship so I will try hard to be there for her so her relationship has a better chance of working out. While it's tempting to spend all your time together, it's not healthy. It is very necessary to do things with other people away from each other. If nothing else, it helps you remember why you're so happy when you're together. It gives you time to miss the other person.

It has been confirmed

I talked to my mom tonight, and my notion that last night's dinner went well was confirmed. My dad seemed to like J. He paid him a really high compliment. It may not sound like much to anyone one else, but to my mom and I it is huge. He said that J seemed like a better fit than either of the last two boys I have dated. My dad always gives his true opinion and doesn't sugar coat, so him saying this was very much in J's favor. He also said that he thought J seemed nervous. I almost typed K instead of J and that made me think of Kafka's The Trial. The main character is only know as K. I am like Kafka because I name my character J. I kind of want to read that book again because I think I would appreciate it more now. I also want to read Pride and Prejudice again for the same reason. Anyway, now J just has to meet my mom. She is really excited to meet him. I think she will really like him a lot. He is so nice and so is she. They will get along well. The concert was really good. I enjoyed it very much. There was an obnoxious (hopefully drunk) lady a few rows ahead of me head banging. It's a Patty Griffin concert...not exactly head banging music. She and her friend kept yelling "Poor house" which I assume meant they wanted her to sing "Poor Man's House." She didn't play it, but she was good anyway. It was kind of a short concert, but that's ok because my dad had a long drive home. Tomorrow I get inducted into the Math Honor Society. My dad is coming to see it. I think there will only be up to 15 people there if that. I think it is pretty funny that I qualified. I'm terrible at mental math. I love trig and factoring. It's another thing to add to my resume. We will probably shop for a birthday present for my mother afterwards, then I will head up to the Beave for the night. Sunday, I will drive home for my mother's birthday. I think it should be a pretty good weekend. Tonight I plan on relaxing with some super-cool girls after my laundry is finished. I'm using right now to have alone time, which is something I haven't had a lot of lately. It's starting to show that I haven't had enough so I'm glad I'm finally getting some. I also have to call my formal date back. He is now pursuing me...now that it's too late. My mom told me to just enjoy being pursued because I knew where my loyalties are. I feel special, but it is kind of bothering me because I don't want to be mean to him. He's begging for my attention now that I'm unavailable, two months ago he could have cared less. I'll have to tell him I'm busy all weekend, just like I told him last Wednesday. I'm so excited for tomorrow. :)

I will call him J

From now on I will refer to my boyfriend as J because I hate the word boyfriend. It just sounds so middle school. I think it makes me sound like a stupid little girl who is obsessed with her boyfriend and jumps at every chance to use the word boyfriend. As much as I am proud and excited that J is my boyfriend, I still do not like the word very much. I gave my group presentation today....the one I was dreading. It went a lot better than I thought it would. I put off making the visual aid, a mock up of the game Operation, for weeks. I was so nervous because I had to draw the man on it and I cannot draw. I sketched him in pencil last week and then last night I finished the sketch and brought it to my group for their approval. They thought he was cute so I finished him in marker. He turned out soo much better than I thought he would. I was pretty pleased. I don't have anything major going on again until my Soc test next Wednesday. I should start reading and looking over the vocabulary for that today. I think that's what I'll do at my other job tonight. This weekend is my mother's birthday. I need to get something for her. I'm not getting her glassware. I got her a nice tote bag from the college bookstore, but I think she deserves more than that. She will like the bag because it has a pocket that zips inside and the top closes with a snap so things are less likely to fall out. It is pretty heavy-duty as well. My dad will help me find something for her on Saturday when he is up for my induction into the math honor society. I just found out that by joining this I'll get an honor cord at graduation. I like those cords...they make me feel important. I'm so terrible at math so I think it's really funny that they are letting me in. I can study really really hard and do well at it, but I forget what I learned pretty quickly and I go back to sucking at math. I guess my hard work pays off though because it will be a nice resume builder and another honor cord. Tomorrow is the Patty Griffin concert with my dad. I'm really excited about it! I'm not sure what I am going to wear yet. I think I have it narrowed down, but I'm not sure. I'll have to try on several outfits tomorrow before I decide. Also, my dad is going to meet J for the first time. We are going to stop in Chippewa to have dinner with him. I'm also excited about that. I'll get back to school kind of later, but I don't have to be anywhere until 11AM on Friday morning so I'll be fine. Last night I had dinner with my big. I love her. We always have fun together. She's so wonderful to talk to. She is so smart and sweet. I can't wait to celebrate her birthday with her. Her actual birthday is today, but she is going out with her mother today so we must celebrate another day. It will be a good time. We think we may do it April Reign weekend because that is the only weekend that both of us will be at school and it won't be the weekend before finals. Yesterday, I noticed that the battery in my blue watch died. The last time I noticed that it died was when I was 17. I was in the airport, saying goodbye to my parents as I was leaving to fly by myself for the first time. I had always flown with my parents before. I was on my way to California to visit my aunt and cousins. I cried at the gate when I had to leave my parents behind. On my way back, I cried when I got through the gate, leaving my aunt and my cousin's husband and son behind. I have problems saying goodbye. I think I may have cried when I left my uncle at the gate in the airport when I was flying to Texas last December. I usually say "See ya" to people rather than "goodbye" because it sounds less harsh. I hate goodbyes.