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It's official now that I have changed my relationship status on facebook. I am now "In a relationship." It excited and frightens me at the same time. I'm not very sure what I have to be afraid of, but for some reason I am. I'm not really afraid of getting hurt because I don't really remember what that's like--which is a good sign. Over the summer a good friend told me to find someone who can't live without you, but would if he had to. I think I've found that and I like it. I've just got to go through with this formal date. It will be ok because that is going no where. He will be a fun date. It still really hasn't sunk in that I am someone's girlfriend. It's kind of like how on my birthday, I never feel older. I guess that's good because my relationship status does not change who I am. I don't want to let it define my life. It's really easy for me to let it run my life though because when I get into a relationship I put all my effort into it. We live far apart so that will help me keep my separate life. I have to tell my mom. I'm a little nervous. I know she won't get mad or anything. She knows that she cannot tell me what to do with my life. I think she will be disappointed that I am not allowing myself to be independent for a while. I think when I describe to her why I chose this, she will understand. She likes what she has heard of him so far. She is glad that he treats me well. She always tells me how well my dad treated her when they started dating, and this young man reminds me of her stories. I really want them to meet him. Maybe in a few months.