A little better

I'm feeling a little better today. I don't feel so sad when I think about him, and I think about him less. I think it was very helpful for me to talk to him yesterday, then to cry about it to my mom. I'm much more calm about it. I don't feel like crying. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. I watched Liam for a few hours today. It is really hot out! It's up in the 90's. We went outside and played for about 15 minutes, but that's all we could take. I'm glad I didn't attempt to do the 2.5 mile bike ride to the park. It's well shaded at the park so it wouldn't have been too bad once we got there, but I would have been a sweaty pig from the bike ride. His dad is going to bike him down to the playground later today because his car seat is out of commission for a while. He asked if I wanted to go, and I kind of do because I want to get the exercise and spend time with my cousin, but I can't because I have to go out to my aunt's store tonight to pick out some things for my mom. We get a hefty family discount so it's pretty nice. I think I'll get t-shirts for the boys I watch at home. I've been watching them long enough that I get them little gifts. Tomorrow Liam's mom and I are going kayaking on their friends' private island. It's so beautiful out there. I've never kayaked so I'm nervous that I won't be strong enough. Liam's mom is training for a tri-Athlon so she is strong. I'm sure she realizes that I am not in the best shape though because I've mentioned how I haven't worked out since Christmas break. It should be an interesting, and hopefully, fun experience. I'm looking forward to it. I also may find a beach with people my age on it and sit and read there. Maybe go into the ocean too. That will be tomorrow though. The place I am going to tonight where the store is, Southbeach, has a beach in it so I may bring my book and the chair and my suit in case I feel like staying for a while. Also, today, Liam's mom suggested we have a picnic on the beach this week. Then she asked if I like fried chicken, which I do. So I'm pretty excited about that too. I'm so sad that this is my last week here. Things are so great down here even if I don't have anyone my age to go out with. It doesn't bother me. Eventually I would find some if I knew I was going to be here for a while. Oh well, I must stick to my original commitments.